The Power of Pain

'Pain' is something that is feared by everyone....My definition of pain is very wide..It can be pain resulting from your body,from your heart or from your emotion..'Pain" is feared as it has the power to cripple every person into a state of despair..Life becomes dull...Life becomes meaningless due to pain...The severity may differ according to the event that leads us to feel such pain...Everyone should know that pain is a part of life. I believe that life is balanced...If there are ups in your life and there will undoubtedly be downs in life...Its like a graph (Sorry for using mathematics), there will be a point of maximum and also a point of minimum. It is certain...So how do i view pain?...I view it more as a test than anything else...I believe god tests us by giving us pain and if we are lucky only difficult situation to see how we would react (I know it may sound stupid..But its my opinion...hehe..)

At this moment where you may see more darkness than light....which is the moment where a person is defined. A person will be defined at the moment of great hardship as this is when we show our best and also our worst. You will also find out who you really are at these moments. Never run away from pain and never push it to someone else because that gives you only a short reprieve from the pain...Eventually it will come back and hit you in a greater force. Being Brave in facing any hardship and learning how to Conquer pain is when u become more matured and as a result...Congratulations you have grown up...I believe a person is the strongest when he is down...You will have more strength than you could ever imagine...your Determination will amaze you and there will be no more darkness. So never despair and take pain as a challenge...Once you have conquered the pain be proud of yourself. Always Remember:

1. Use the power of pain to conquer the pain
2. Always remain Positive and Optimist
3. Always be grateful for all that you have
4. Life is beautiful when you open your eyes


Its Christmas eve..Its time to be with your loved ones and if you have someone that you really love..give that person a warm warm hug...For those that are not that fortunate maybe tonight is the night....listen to some Christmas music and have fun...AND DON'T FORGET TO SMILE!!!!

Shame on you

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(Parts are slightly inaudible. This transcript may not be entirely accurate.)

Lingam: The CJ (Chief Justice - judiciary’s No 1 post) said his relative is now the Agong, so he wants to stay on to 68, so, Tengku Adnan said - I told Tengku Adnan, yesterday I had a meeting with him - he said PM is already very angry with him … and … he said no problem, he is going to make you acting err… confirm your position as PCA (President of Court of Appeal – judiciary’s No 2), working very hard, and then get Tan Sri Mokhtar as CJM (Chief Judge of Malaya – judiciary’s No 3).
Ah, so we just keep it confidential. I am working very hard on it. Then there is a letter, according to Tengku - I am going to see him tomorrow - there is a letter sent to … ah … CJ - I mean Tan Sri Dzaiddin - that Datuk Heliliah, …er Datuk Ramli and Datuk Maarop be made judges, and he rejected that Dr Andrew Chew and apa itu Zainudin Ismail lah because Zainuddin Ismail who condemned your appointment and Tan Sri Mohtar’s appointment.
And then you also, it seems, wrote a letter for the remaining … confirmed as judges. As per our memo, I discussed with Tun Eusoff Chin and we sent the same memo to PM. I just want to get a copy letter that this has been done.
And then Tan Sri Dzaiddin said he is going to recommend six people for the Court of Appeal, but until today the letter hasn’t come to PM. He never discussed, but neither he has sent the letter to PM. He has not sent. So, I know it is under the constitution, for judges all, that is your job, Datuk, to send, but we don’t want to make it an issue now.Ah, okay. Actually I told Tengku Adnan to inform PM, PM to call you for a meeting. But I will organise this so that Tengku Adnan will call you directly. And then I got your number, I will tell him to call you directly to for you to meet PM lah. Ah… So should be okay, then ar… correct, correct, it is very important that the key players must be there.
Correct, correct, correct. Correct, correct. You know that the same problem that Tun Eusoff Chin had. He tried to do all this and yet he has run out of soldiers. He couldn’t do it because many were from the other camp. Last time was unfortunate because Tun Daim was doing everything sabotaging, you know lah…
Otherwise how are things with you - everything is okay? No, don’t worry. You know sometimes Tan Sri Vincent said that half the time we are talking about judiciary rather than doing the work. But if I don’t do this part, my work will be useless. Ha! Ha! Ha!
Ah, yes. Correct, correct, correct, correct, correct. Right, right, right. Correct. Ah. Ah. Right! Susah. You see he has now asked for six Court of Appeal judges, so that he can put his men before he retires.
Correct, correct, correct, ah, and then, ah, ah, correct, correct, correct, correct, correct.
Ah, never mind, I will do this, I will get er… Tengku Adnan to arrange for PM to call you and Tan Sri Vincent Tan for PM to call. You know why, actually, I am very grateful to Tan Sri Vincent Tan, You know why? I brainwashed him so much I even quarreled with him.
One day I went to Vincent Tan’s house, I fired him at night in his house. I said bloody hell, if you don’t do this who will do it? All these people, Tun Eusoff Chin, Datuk Ahmad Fairuz, Tan Sri Zainal all fought for …that. Then he called Tengku Adnan. Tengku Adnan he said, saya bukan Perdana Menteri Malaysia lah, you know. If the old man doesn’t want to listen to me, go to hell.
He quarreled with me. I said never mind, never mind, Tan Sri, you talk to PM again tomorrow morning to put Datuk Ahmad Fairuz to CJM. So next day morning he went and he called me back 9.30 that he said PM has already agreed. So I said never mind, we hope for the best. So I said no harm trying, the worst that it can happen is you lose.
Being the old man, he is 76 years old, he gets whispers everywhere, and then you don’t whisper, he get taken away by the other side. But, now the PM is very alert because every time he gets letters from Tan Sri Dzaiddin, he calls Tengku Adnan, he says discuss with Vincent, come and discuss. And…
Yes, yes, ya. Correct, correct. Ya, but you see although I know PM, but my views … I am a lawyer in practice… my views are… I go through them, I go through them lah.
Ah. Ah. Ah. Ah.
And then Dzaiddin will go and tell them you went and saw PM and make a big issue out of it. Oh ya, I think so, I think so.
Okay, fine, fine, fine, fine. Okay. Okay. Okay. Okay. Okay. Right, okay, okay. Ah. Ah. Correct, correct.
Now I heard Raja Aziz, Raja Aziz ah, two weeks ago spoke to my lawyer Thayalan, and another lawyer Anad, in the High Court - they have a case with each other. So, Thayalan and Anad asked Raja Aziz, how is Tan Sri Wan Adnan?
He said he is on his way down. But you know what is the shocking thing he said? Datuk Fairuz became CJM. He overruled everybody, in three months time, he is going to be PCA, and six months time, he is going to be CJ. He said I can’t take this shock. He told lah. Ha!
It seems ah that they are going to organise a campaign … they are going to organise a campaign to run you down. But you just keep quiet - don’t say anything. Don’t … even the press ask, you said I leave it to God, that’s all. Don’t say. I really like your message. You said I work very hard, what can I do? I leave it to God. That’s the best answer, Datuk, that you can ever give. Ah.
Yes… I will also get Tan Sri to remind PM to put a Tan Sri ship this year lah. You know, this will elevate you, you know.
Oh, yes, yes, yes, yes. Ah. Steve Shim got so fast, Tan Sri Chong waited for a whole year to get Tan Sriship.
Ah. My God, that’s why, ah. Correct, correct, correct, correct, ya, ya, ya, ya, right, right, right, correct, correct.
Don’t worry, we organise this. And if Tan Sri Vincent and Tengku Adnan want to meet you privately, they will, I will call you. We organise a private arrangement, in a very neutral place.
No, don’t worry, Datuk, I know how much you suffered for Tun Eusoff Chin. And Tun said Datuk Ahmad Fairuz 110 percent loyalty. We want to make sure our friends are there for the sake of PM and for the sake of the country. Not for our own interest, not for our own interest. We want to make sure the country comes out well.
Well, you suffered so much, so much you have done - for the election petition, Wee Choo Keong, everything. How much, nobody would have done all these.
Yes, you know. Ah. Good lah. You don’t worry. I am constantly working on this. I…
Ya, ya, don’t worry, don’t worry. We work hard on this er Datuk. And if Tan Sri Vincent and Tengku want to see you, I will organise it in a confidential place.
Okay, Datuk, all the very best. God bless you and your family.
Okay. Thank you, thank you. Bye-bye, bye-bye.
[Off Camera Voice]: Who is that Dato?
Lingam: Chief Justice Malaya.
[Off Camera Voice]: Who is that?
Lingam: Dato Ahmad Fairuz
[Off camera voice]: Oh Ahmad Fairuz.
Lingam: I put him up there. Don’t tell this, please. I cannot tell this to Manjit. And he is acting President Court of Appeals Number 2 post. He is next Chief Justice. He always says “I leave it to you.”
[Off Camera Voice]: I thought you were very close to Tun Eusoff Chin, Datuk?
Lingam: He is Eusoff Chin’s man, Eusoff Chin retired. But Dzaiddin hates Eusoff Chin, you understand? Ah..
[Off Camera Voice]: Because you know I…I…I..as far as I know you are very…
Lingam: Eusoff Chin and I are extremely close. Because you know…Yeah. Eusoff Chin in power, I can straight and get in Pom! Pom! Pom! Pom! But now Dzaiddin is there. So Dzaiddin is attacking our cases. That means what? James Kumar is aligned to Dzaiddin. But Dzaiddin is retiring in 15th of September. He is finished.
[Off camera voice]: Next year?
Lingam: So Dzaiddin really wants to go…Don’t worry. Dzaiddin recommended Malik Ahmad to be Chief Judge of Malaya. But we went and “cut” “cut” cut” cut” I and Tengku Adnan and Vincent told PM. I stop him for now, because he is anti-PM. We put Fairuz in. And we put…I told you three months ago he became CJM [Chief Justice Malaya]. He said “Don’t believe.” Then he got it. He rang up to thank me. And all that. He now acting PCA because Wan Adnan is sick. Right? This. Apart from law knowledge you need kow tow. Please understand that. You need to know the emperor. Knowing the law doesn’t give you the winning formula, you must also kow tow to the emperor. Correct or not? So now I am working very hard. So he agreed to meet Vincent Tan and PM and…what you call Tengku Adnan.
[Off camera voice]: Do you think Vincent has an interest over PM?
Lingam: You don’t know about the history. Businesswise may not be successful. Robert Kuok is very brilliant. Lim Goh Tong is very rich. Vincent Tan, you know what PM say? He went to Averton he went to Langkawi. He said bincang. I want you to build a hotel here. His wife pulled him away. [Inaudible] He said Dato Seri I will think about it. The wife pulled him away. There is another [inaudible] cannot get a bank loan. Vincent there. Vincent, can you build a hotel? Ready for next Air show?
I want you do it in 6 months. `Datuk Seri, Don’t worry, I will get it done.’ He paid double the price to get all of them. A big loss lah. Then Solomon Island and Fiji and all, he said, Vincent go and invest there, he went and bought…[inaudible] the government factory [inaudible] you do this project a bit and cover up your loss. PM will do what he want to do to cover your backside.
[Off camera voice]: Vincent is very close to him.
Lingam: That’s right. Don’t ask… because Vincent has taken me to PM’s residence… the house … [inaudible]… Anwar’s case… the lawyers…Wee Cheong … [inaudible]. But I cannot go and talk to PM just like that and say promote this and that…
Because ah, he knows… I am a… but when PM calls me on Anwar’s case, I can tell him… he’ll listen…But if I go promote so and so, that means I got interest. So, I don’t do that. I use Vincent and Tengku, go and do that. I don’t f*** them up. They go
and do that. But I tell you this lah. Don’t tell in front of people, of course. Life, one thing go confidential wrong is dangerous. Ah. Never, never say…You should… never. Even though to PM. You should never say. I don’t know. I always say “I don’t know.” That’s all.
[Off camera voice]: Everybody… I think many people know. Even the son case, everything I talk the father, …. Talk until he agreed.
Lingam: You know me [inaudible]. But I never talk about it. Even the son’s case, I do everything. I talk to the father…Talk until he agreed. But if it is a big crisis that affects him, ….I can talk, he will listen. But if I want to favour somebody, that I cannot guarantee. Because my interest is not his interest. You know what I mean. Tomorrow invest your interest involving your father, I can come say this this this, you will listen. But tomorrow I appeal for me, you are not obliged to listen. Because you are a politician, PM. Politician is what is your interest, not what is my interest. But if I am giving advise on your interest, you will listen. On my interest, you will not. You must be careful about this.
[Off camera voice]: Datuk, I need to ask you this question.
Lingam: Ask me. Ask me.
[Off camera voice]: For a while now…
Lingam: Because we can talk behind these people.
[Off camera voice]:… Actually, I think, you know, Daim has more equity interest in Berjaya than Vincent Tan, isn’t that true?
Lingam: Let me tell you something … [inaudible] was bought by Daim … [inaudible]. Later on he did some deals where Daim supposed to help him. One or two he helped. Supposed to give him some money. Didn’t give. Part was paid, part not paid. Later on Daim called up and he got paid.

"Self sacrifice"

About a week ago, A Malaysian student died while saving a woman from drowning in Australia...He risked his own life to save a life of another...The meaning of the words Courage, Bravery and Self-Sacrifice is reflected in his actions. My condolences to the family but be proud as your son gave his life for a noble cause.

Sometimes in our life we have to make choices where we have put the happiness or safety of others above ourselves, so what would be the correct choice to make.....It would be prudent of me to say that "self-sacrifice" is the only answer But this is not the only answer,I'm sorry for being so negative but over the years I have learnt that being a good guy is not always the best choice. The good ones always suffer but the people that make the smart choices are the one that benefit from every situation. I did not use the term Bad ones is because I'm a staunch believer of "karma", I believe what goes around comes around.....Yeah like the song...So those that that do bad things...U WILL PAY...SOONER OR LATER....But i wont deny those who do bad things do enjoy but remember that's only temporary as the day of repayment will arrive. How do i know? because i have had my fair share of repayments...hehe.....

Now lets compare "self-sacrifice" and being selfish...its a question of much much you care for yourself and how strong are your morals...so different people will have different opinions on what do to in a particular situation...i would say 50% of people will choose self-sacrifice and another 50% will choose the option of being selfish...Now would i call those people that choose the selfish option of being bad...If they brought pain to others then yes...but if they didn't,then only the outcome of their decision will be the deciding answer...at the end of the day when we are faced with such a situation we may never know what choice we will make...you will be surprised with your decision at that moment...and you will learn a lot about yourself...Such situations are not only limited to saving the life of another but it also appears in your career and personal life...

For me...I have always found making decision that i know that's the best for everyone and not hurting others is always the best..but its not easy...so that's why i have to keep on reminding myself and sharing it with others...hehe...I have to practise what i preach right?

Little Napoleon

I have been reading the Sun Newspaper regularly when I'm able to obtain a copy before it runs out..The sun newspaper has a very unique history on its own where it was banned and nearly declared bankrupt but coming back with a revolutionary idea of BEING FREE OF CHARGE..the saying NOTHING IS FREE has been given a huge exception by the Sun..hehe...and you know us Malaysians, we love everything being as cheap as possible and being free, its like a godsend to us. But the thing that really attracts me to the Sun is that they are Bold in exposing scandals and wrongdoing by those in power. Examples are the Port Klang Free Trade Zone scandal where certain figures bought the land at a low price and sold the same land back to the government...."Durian Runtuh"...and the other scandal which is my favourite, The Adun that built a mansion without a permit and got away with it...The part that baffles me is how can afford it? The part that really pissed me off is when he had his Raya Open House recently where he invited guest to stay in his Mansion for a night...That was still fine for me but when asked why did he decide to do that he answered...Would you believe it 'they will never have a chance like this'....Now is he being little too arrogant? Does he deserve to represent the constituency of Port Klang...The answer would be NO!!But will he continue to be elected?I Believe he will as long as he his nominated by his own party...Why? the exposure level of his wrongdoing was massive...It was widely reported....But no concrete action was taken...Now he still dares to pull stunts like this knowing that he is invisible..This is a an occasion where the media has lost its battle to speak the truth..This is a sad day...Politicians and those in power must always be reminded that they are not invisible and the media has the power to expose them for all their betrayal of the trust given by the public...Exemplary action should be taken against these politicians such as getting suspended if not sacked...Where their action were criminal in nature 'duduklah lokap beberapa hari'.....

WHY ACTION HAS TO BE TAKEN? if they don't fear the repercussion,these figures will be more bold as they know if they ever get caught...It will be only a situation of 'Tunggu Hujan Habis', Wait it out..keep a low profile for months..Everything will be all right after that...Is this what we want our Little Napoleons to think?

I would like to compliment Mr. Nadeswaran the author of the column CitizanNades that has been pushing strongly to end these Little Napoleons especially with regard to our Port Klang Adun...Every week his column intends to create a greater social awareness of these Napoleons and tries so hard to remind us that never let those that we have put faith and trust upon to fight for our rights trample on our rights while making a buck on it...His Christmas wish would be to see some action taken..True that this figures are still sleeping in their huge mansion but at least know you have made me realize that something has to be done. Never get Discouraged as you serve a greater purpose then to write...You write to speak the truth!

For all those celebrating Hari Raya Haji...Selamat Hari Raya Haji and to the rest have a fun holiday tomorrow.....

The " Video"

The 'Video"....this is the most hotly debated video in all our kopitiam..mamak...a few months ago..everyone must have at least heard it..i shall refer it to as VK to refresh your mind...nowdays must be careful or I might be given an all expense paid holiday to Taiping..(at this moment if you have no idea what im talkin about then READ NEWSPAPER SOMETIMESLAH!!!) hehe....guys and gals we are no more kids anymore....there is more to life than playin games hehe...

Today they just released the full video...I've checked YouTube but its not there yet...but being malayians(our love for Gossip and Drama)..it shall be there soon...I've watched it and im stunned...I have heard stories of corruption in the judiciary but this is mindblowing...Plotting to manipulate the future of the judiciary is serious..its alarming...The moment we lose our confidence in the judiciary, where are we goin to turn to? ...Let me give a practical example...You have a case where you have been cheated by someone and that person has either bribed the judge or its his "kangtau"(i just love that word..its hard to explain what it means but in the current im trying to explain its his "kaki").....The Courts are respected institutions..judges are viewed as men of integrity...For those that have joined the judiciary..I Sincerely respect the dedication as you are not paid as high as the lawyers in front of you and you are forced to deal with so much of paperwork..i dont think its easy to write judgements...researching the law...taking down notes during trial...having your whole day preocccupied with trials and cases...The worst part would be the restrictions..cant do this..cant do that...You have to sacrifice your personal life for your work. I believe that judges must love their work and the law before even considering this road...When judges join the judiciary they should be conscious and aware of the sacrifice they have to make...If they have any doubt in their mind that they are willing to compromise their integrity then be bold and leave.

For the people implicated in the video..shame on you if its true...but the extended video just brings to light what goes on...we know it but it has never been exposed in such a manner....But I have to be practical thats life...people have always tried and will keep on trying to take advantage of every situation..If u have somethin working to your advantage then why not? I would do the same..How about the video...Damn there are a lot of names...a lot...to VK himself good job for losing so much of weight! i wonder what programme he joined..hehe....How about the Royal Commission? First i disagree with the Head... As what i heard and as reported in the papers he screwed his own boss during the the sacking of Tun Salleh Abbas..for those of you at this moment feeling a bit blur dont worry i'll explain. Tun Salleh Abbas the Chief Judge (previously known as Lord President) was sacked together with 2 other Supreme Court Judges (Now known as the Federal Court)....Sorry i dont know the exact details as I was only 3 years old at that time hehe...He supported the move against the Lord President...The Lord President was sacked as they were not the Government 'Kangtau" at that time..Thats Our Malaysia Boleh Spirit, semua pun kita boleh buat...

What is the outcome of this Video? to be honest..I have no idea..I doubt much will happen..But Important Judges remember your duty..Keep your integrity...Here appreciation must be given To Court of Appeal Judge Gopal Sri Ram for delivering fair and just judgements...

Racial Unity...Demonstrations...

Wats Going on? thats the first thing thats crossed my mind...protest after protest....This is really unprecedented..I have never and ever thought that our country would be plagued by the threat of street violence and demonstrations. Now one might ask whether this protest has the support of the majority of average malaysians? hmm..this would be a difficult question to answer as the signs would seem that many malaysians are discontent with the current goverment...but i have to ask what do you intend to accomplish? electoral reforms or causing unneccesary panic...the start of this series of demonstrations has mede everyone look hard at our country. Is it perfect? No...but can we change it? maybe..but what do you want to change...by demonstrating and conducting "walks"..those that oppose the goverment has raised and made the goverment listen...but i strongly believe there is a limit...Lets be practical, this is Malaysia..its is comprised of many races living in harmony for a COMMON GOAL..that is a GGOD LIFE..lets ask every malaysian when he walks on the street in s foreign country...Does He Proudly claim he is an Indian, Malay or Chinese? i Doubt it...i Believe nearly every will introduce himself as being a MALAYSIAN...NEVER FORGET that!...though we are of different races...we are brothers at heart...Never let ourselves forget that..what does our youth feel feel about the current climate? i believe most of them are still oblivious to what is going on? I only have one fear...a repeat of May 13...i work in downtown KL...I never one to find myself one day walkin out of office and having people chasing me with parang and watching people getting slaughtered in front of me!

The goverment has taken the standard approach to handle this matter..lets be practical...we have never allowed protest and never we will....why? because the governmant fears of the "spillover effect" as in Philipines,Myanmar and as what is happenin here..it started with the Bar Council walk to reform the judiciary..for those that have watched the VK Lingham tape it may be justified..but the police have taken a very rough approach to this situation though i wont blame them, they have their orders...If i was a ruling this country i might adopt the same approach..maybe i would have used the ISA a long time ago..But lets not forget those organizing this demonstration are not angels..they have their own ulterior motives...Why would i say that? We are humans..We are not Saints...If these people or even the goverment were so good they would be running charity programmes or running training and education programmes to educate the poor..

So whats the answer to this situation..maybe allwing controlled "walk" over a certain area..maybe around Dataran Merdeka....it may seem like a good option..U do what u want as long as around dataran Merdeka..Do it every week for all i care but dont damage and fight with the police..throwing rocks is not the answer..i am an independent third party but please dont give me the excuse the police were rough, the police used tear gas...THEY WARNED YOU DIDNT THEY...the police already declared they wont allow any protest and you expect them to be nice..ain't that ridiculous?

Though there might be discontent but I believe most Malaysian dont care...what we care is whether we can make more money and live a better life...have more time to spend time with our family and kids...the more the country goes into havoc..NOBODY WILL INVEST HERE..Let me give you a good example..for those familiar with penang will know...Investors lose confidence...The whole Bayan Lepas would be unemployed..even the great nasi kandars would lose bussiness...seriously

So everyone...do but never hurt others...its good to bring up issues but dont cross the limit...always keep it peaceful but never incite others...never create hatred...its the 21st century..look at it rationaly..solve it like educated and refined individuals.

Being Smart or Being Right

Another thought provoking question for this week...we grow up..and by growing up, we are at times required to make rational adult decisions...thats a big word.."rational adult decisions"...how do we know whether we are making "rational adult decisions"..the thing is we never know until we meet the consequence of our decision..if its all good..kudos you made the right decision..if you dont and your now in what i would refer to as "deep shit"..but then dont despair because thats "life"...you learn from it.

At times making "rational adult decisions" comes down to two question are we suppose to make a decision thats feels right or that we know is the smartest decision to do. An example is somethin that very common to most teenagers...after a relationship has ended, the question is either letting go or keep fighting for it..now being smart means knowing how to cut ur loss and leaving..but being right it means fighting on..now you may ask why?...being smart means knowing how to evaluate a situation and look at your own benefit at large, that means being able to outweigh the benefit on your side compared to its disadvantage...For those that have no clue of what i have been saying then congratulations you are still in the 'songs of innocence' while the rest that do understand sadly life has brought you to the 'songs of experience'.

What about making the right decision? hmmm..that means making a decison that is of your whole personal reflection of the situation and ultimately being swayed by emotions...A simple situation would be what yourt heart says and what your mind decides..in a nutshell making the smart decision is always what your brain decides while making the right decision is what your heart says...but i have to acknowledge making the right decision makes you more alive and gives you a "kick" to your existence..why? making the right decisions require on an average more action than inaction...the more thngs we do..especially those exceptionally different from what we do on an average day makes the day a little more "happenin"

Over the years i have always prefered to choose to make decisions based on what i feel is right but there have been its own repercussions...i have never enjoyed makin smart decisions as it always feel like im doin something wrong but its always ends up being the best decision..learning how to balance both this option will be difficult but never impossible. Deep thought while making any decision is a requirement but sometimes they are always signs to guide you..hei i do believe in signs....it seems ridiculous but sometimes...though rare..they is always a helping hand.... anyway got to get back to work (feel bad because like makan gaji buta)..hehe ....thx guys for reading..